dare to dream

sometimes we are consumed by mere surviving
that we forget that we should be living....

let's dare to dream again and
live!  laugh!  love!

project "just keep on writing" launched

alot a has changed since 2013 came in.  there were numerous times that i told myself to write about them but let's just say that i gave in to excuses.

i started a new job in totally different field than what i was accustomed to.  with the new job description, i need to be creative everyday.  from creating interesting collaterals and  delivering well-written articles with a few hours lead time can be the norm.  i feel so out of practice that it took me half a day to write a 4 paragraph newsletter entry.  so i need to do just that...write, write and write some more till it becomes part of my reflexes again.

i invite you to take part as i tell you the stories of the new career and the success (plus the in betweens)  to make 2013 a launching board to living a life i am happy about (if not dream about).


yours in writing,

m.

Post-flood Lessons

unpacking my bags yet again...all part of my handstitched gypsy life...whether planned or planned, domestic or international, with a group or alone. i can fit what i need in my purple luggage (eventually i'd own one of those North Face trolley backpacks; paging sponsorship) and just learn from the world...

so im back in our post-flood-almost-back-to-normal-home...and im looking forward to my next adventure....

for this one i learned that...
when you ask, God will find a way to provide through people willing to help...
no matter how many friends or family you have you still have to deal with the huge decisions alone...
watching DVD will never beat watching things like Mahathir on bio and seeing those scary fishes on River Monters (i will stay inside the boat on calm river waters now) so I need to get cable tv for reals!

and

life is like Lego set, you will never get it as "the complete" set, but rather you get a set of blocks here and there and from those you create something...as more are given to you, then you add to what you have created.

 building your dreams a blo

ck at a time.

this kind of life

the time i was living here

gave me a glimpse
of the life i wanted to wake up to

for the rest of my life.

i have to get back to it soon!

Living in Nature Lodge Kinabatangan
Kampung Bilit, Sabah, Malaysia

sharing my tales

i guess i am still thinking of what to do with this blog.

i want it to be like a travel blog. i am just concerned, that i wont have enough material to make posting consistent.  my old blog was a mixture of travels, rants and opinions and unless you are interested in my life it was too much of everything.  but that is how my mind and life works, like right now 9 other tabs are open, traffic comes in from all sides that unless i make sure the stop light works otherwise its a mind-blowing collision waiting to happen.

so i want to stream line.  i have my secret-tell-all-rant-blog all set up.  now i want something that I can share to the public.  so here i am researching.  my all time favorite blogs are Kyla Roma, A Cup of Jo and the flickr page cum photo blog of this creative woman called Roman Lily.


but i'm looking at the possibility of really making this blog like a travel journal.  i have so many stories to tell the world.

im currently reading on travel blogs like this, this and this for research.  also reading travel blogs is my quick fix to wander cravings, since i am currently dry docked at my fathers house.

i particularly like We Are Sole Sisters. they did what i had wanted to do, quit their jobs and travel for 6 months.  well, i have something similar that i do.  i didn't realize i was doing it until i looked at past photos and realized that every 2 years, since i started going to Sabah, I would take 2 months off and live there.  but back to the topic (see how mind works, incoming traffic), 6 months of being on the road exploring different locations for Php 100,000.  that is a piece of heaven for gypsy souls like me.  and the best part is they got to write about it.

my netbook and hard drive has years-worth of material waiting to be written.  some are too old that people may no longer be interested.  the others as recent as my Feb-Apr Sabah hiatus.

one thing though that motivates me is that when i look back at my life i have so much to be thankful for.  i can be daring, fearless and passionate that i want to infect the people around me to find their own journeys.  and though i am older, i do not see myself ever giving that up.

i'd like to share my tales of dream catching and wandering.

lune vintage

saw this beautiful dreamcatcher tattoo
on this website called Lune Vintage

i am reminded of who i am
a dream catching wandering wonderer
with a love affair with life
that despite numerous heartbreaks
will always heal, love again
and explore the world

via Blog this'

turning a new page

the month started sour with me realizing that the worst thing that can cause one extreme pain, is when you consider someone a friend and yet they cant even give you the respect to tell you what is wrong with you and the opportunity to make steps to redeem yourself. i felt that I was such a terrible person for people to just leave me like that without even knowing what was wrong. you end up guessing and assuming all the worst things and my imagination is way too creative!

it blows up your self esteem tank and you don't even know who you are anymore. you question your meaning of friendship, the decisions you make and worst you doubt yourself for getting into this mess.

but you have to start somewhere. so I am healing and rebuilding my life simultaneously. to those that have made me feel that way I pray that you never have to go through that painful ordeal. i will heal and forgive. i will also rebuild knowing that through everything all i wanted has always been to help those around me. if my ways seem intense or out of line please feel free to let me know and let me tweak so i can move forward and understand others even more.

this month i owe to those handful that have proven that i can still do great things in life. you guys were simply there to help me sort through the mess that I was. thank you because now i start attracting good things into my life again. turning my lemons into lemon ping (malaysian lemonade)!

to better days

I started blogging in 2002, and though I have made several blogs and a secret one, and have always had Catching Dreams as my main journal.

But as the changes were thrown at me through the years, I knew that priorities, needs and wants have changed. It was time to close the other book and start fresh with pristine pages.

In this, I shall write about probably the same old things (yeah even boys) but I shall process them with more mature heart.

i will always be the same dream-catching-wondering-wonderer, just better and loads wiser!